the 'shortest' 7 years..

assalamualaikum...

greetings! *style krismas sket2,hehe*...dh lame x update,bukan xde cite,tp xtau nk tulis mcm mane...aku x pndai mengayat,eheh..alasan menutup kemalasan semata2..tp hari nih mcm ade benda je nk tulis, xmo sad2 stories,tp nk story mory dlm entri nada menggedik..yeee...tepat skali,ini adalah entri psal boyfriend...so sape2 yg rase nk muntah,mane la tau kot2 weekend ari tuh byk mkan,heheh..get ready to puke guys! ^_^

hmm...i've been in few relationships b4,not dat im proud of any, but those days rily taught me things. but in the middle of those ordinary relationships wic i am now ready to say dat "they were my biggest mistakes", there is one relationship dat i nvr thought of having, wic i am happily experiencing it rite now.

if kak kay has her mr.lampard, cik aan wif her hubby mr.comot, nuai wif her bf mr.ir, i have my mr.bon2. *kawen pun x lagi dh have have lak,hehe*... mr.bon2? dun ask!

we used to be gud friends,back in mrsm tpg. owh,btw, mr.bon2 is my junior, 1 year by age. yes,i dun mind, he doesnt mind, we r hpy wif it..bak kate mak aku,janji agama bagus n hati baek,hehhe..skrg baru terase nk ikut ckap mak jd anak yg taatttt....

ok2,back to the story..as per his story,he first set his eyes on me in 2000. time tuh ade minggu bahasa mrsm semalaysia kt mrsm balik pulau. i was in mrsm dungun, he was in mrsm gerik, & our teams met in final 4 bahas. he said he was jalan2 around the academic building when he saw me rehearsing. cut the story short, he fall in love lah..heheh *baru form 2 tuh....hehehe*

so,dat was his first moment. mine was different. me first know bout him when i was in mrsm taiping n he still in mrsm gerik. we went to mrsm langkawi 4 bahas2 thing again in 2001 n at dat point of time, my teammates wic were his seniors in gerik told me dat ter's dis 1 junior who is so hebat in bahas n i shud go n watch him debating. n so i did. i said to myself, bole tahan jugak la, so nxt yr if he masuk tepeng, bole la join the team. i congratulated him n he x layan me okayyyy!

so 2002 came. he did join our team. he was the 3rd speaker n i ws the 1st speaker, dipisahkan oleh jep. *jefri khairil zabri,dimane ye anda skrg...* surprisingly, fr a person who x layan me at lgkawi, he was soooooo nice to me thruout the 1 year we had 2gether as teammates. blanje2 me, treat me mcm princess btol2, since i was the only girl in the team n d others suke buli2 me. i got the feeling he likes me but me jual mahal la kan.lg pun die junior, ehehe..tp skrg die bgtau yg die sbenarnye xnak ngorat pun *eleeeeee....x ngaku lak!*

2003,2004,2005 passed by without me knowing his whereabouts were....but he knew mine....

2006, we met again....hang around,but only once. i broke his heart 4 giving him false hope. *b..if i cud change evrything... !_!*

16th September 2007.
after a year, he called me. but now, he called from bintulu. he said he was in training @ cadetship wif MISC, as a marine engineer. we texted the whole day...n i remember shortly afta he buka puasa dat day, he called me, saying dat he's leavin 4 japan 4 two weeks n i said ok. n dat was it. nothing out of ordinary.

16th-30th september 2007.
i was in pain. i dun know why, i dun know wut ws it. but one thing i know 4 sure, i cant take him off my mind. all the memories keep coming back, the presents, the bahas trainings, the bahas travellings, the smiles, the laughs, the makan2, everything! i said 2 myself, maybe i get too carried away or in other word, perasan. x mgkin die suke btol2 kt aku sbb dh lame sgt dh, dulu tuh time budak2, skrg dh besar, die keje besar,gaji besar, msti dh ade awek,die call pun sbb nk tnye khabar,u know;catch up n stuff. *sigh....*

30th september 2007.
he ws in pasir gudang, his kapal masuk dry dock, ala mcm servis kapal la kirenye, mcm kete camtuh..afta abis keje, he called me, we sembang2 mcm biase, mcm kawan je, we laughed a lot like ol days, it was so nice at dat time..since it was puase month, we talked til sahur time n afta sahur, he said he has sumthin to tell me. n swear to God, at dat point of time, i didnt think of anythin pelik or perasan2, juz perasaan biase..

n tis is wut he said...

mr bon2: awak,saye rase saye kene bgtau awak nih..

me: ha,ape die, bgtau je la, suspen jek,skema lak.. >> see...me sngguh brutal, x ayu lgsung!

mr.bon2: selama 7tahun nih, saye pegi blajar kt merata tmpat,saye belayar b'bulan2, juz nk cari satu kekuatan. saye rase saye dh cukup kuat dh skrg n ape saje knytaan yg saye akn terima lepas ni, saye akn blapang dada..

me: ish..merepek ape nih..bgtau je la,mcm bahas pun ade la awak nih..

mr.bon2: saye sbenarnye y, saye syg kt awk. saye tau awk mmg tau tp sy x tau sy silap atau x
bila sy x bgtau awk selama 7thun ni. sy slalu cari jalan nk dekatkn diri dgn awk, tp awk slalu hilang..kali ni,sy tekad, sy kene bgtau awk, dr hari pertama sy tgk awk 7thun lepas smpai saat ni, sy x penah bhenti sygkan awk...dpan kaabah sy b'doa, dlm menangis sy b'doa, kt tgh2 laut sy b'doa, sy b'doa sy dpt bgtau awk benda ni, n hidup dgn awk smpai bila2...

me: . . . . . . . . . . . . .saye x tau nk ckap ape. . . . . . . . .

mr.bon2: xpe, xpyah ckp ape2, sy boleh terima apa saje jwpan, tipu lah klau saye ckap sy tak
mgharap, tp sy akan lebih dr bsyukur even klau just dpat b'kawan je dgn awk...sy tau awk takut nk involve dlm relationship lg tp biar sy bgtau awk lg skali, sy akn lebih dr bsyukur klau dpt kwan dgn awk...awk jgn takut k? awk kn brutal,hehhe...

me: *in tears*.......knp awk amik mase lama sgt....

mr.bon2: mgkin saye hebat bile b'bahas, tp sy mmg x pndai dlm benda2 ni..sy tgk frenster awk, tgk gmbr awk dgn x-bf awk, sy sedih, tp hati n naluri sy kuat, sy yakin,insyallah,awk mmg utk sy...bila sy doa dpan kaabah sy nk msuk tepeng utk jumpa awk Allah makbulkan,sy dh tau, insyallah,1 hari nnti, sy akn bsama awk...dah2,awk jgn rase takut or pelik dgn saye...kita kwn je dulu k?awk bole pikir,amik la masa selama mane pun yg awk nak. sy bole tnggu, 7thun pun bole, kacang je..ehehhe..>>cess mamat nih,blagak lak die,heheh...

me: *gelak...smiling...* ^_^ ok, sy akn bgtau awk apa yg sy pikir k..thnk u sbb bgtau sy sume ni
dlm kdaan yg wat sy selesa...nnti sy bgtau awk k? bye..assalamualaikum..





dat was it. wut did i answer him?


there ws no need for any answer.....




b'coz 2weeks after dat, i was in pasir gudang ^_^

mr.bon2 & i in the cool overalls
*lookin happy in that steaming wardrobe malfunction,hehe!*
my 1st 'field trip' to a huge tanker a.k.a kapal besau giler!
*entry on the field trip coming soon ^_^*








p/s: time kaseh krn membaca entri yg pnjang ini. sngguh ku x sangke ku bole type pjg2.hehe..to mr.bon2, senyum2, me love u!