Sebulan Berlalu.

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My sweet readers; kalau ada jiwang-phobia, this entry is not for you.

Readers discretion is advised. Hihihi.

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Sayang,

You may not approve me writing this jiwang note for you here but knowing you, I can picture you sengeh eventually. Hik.

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Sayang,

It's been a month since I last saw you.
For our standard, one month is not that long, kan B?
When you were in Batu Rakit and I was at UIA, sometimes due to the exams, different holiday breaks etc, we didn't see each other quite often and one month was considered okay, kan? =)

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Sayang,

No doubt that I was a lost kitten for the first week after you left.

Crying in the middle of nights, crying whilst driving, crying everytime at the thought of you calling me at your usual hours, pendek kata, crying when I want to.

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The most painful time was in the evening; around 6 to 8pm.

When you were around, you always tell me that everyday, you will wait for those hours because you'll get to talk to me without me rushing to do work stuff.

I didn't pay much attention to those words but I've realized it now.

And I'm so, so sorry sayang. It must been hard on you. Inconsiderate me. =(

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Sayang,

I'm not writing stuff that worries you. I'm not writing to tell the world how inconsiderate I was/am (hihi,tau pun malu...) but I'm writing to tell you that for the past one month, I was alright & happy.

But don't get me wrong, I would be jumping all around if you are here.

What I want to tell you is that I'm doing fine here, really.

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As long as I know that you are fine onboard, I'll be fine baby.

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I can't thank you enough for doing everything possible to let me know that you are fine and you miss me and you love me.

One email per day, satellite phone calls every 2 or 3 days and hundreds of ringgit for SMSes & calls when the coverage is within reach. THANK YOU.

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Thank you sayang,

It feels right to have you in my life.

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Everytime my heart calls for you & yearns for your comforting voice,,,, there you go; +121978010 will be singing at my handphone screen.

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And everytime it happened, you'll hear my usual shrieking of "Bee!!!!!! Baru doa mintak2 Bee call!!!!" and pufffffff, just like that, no more tears & problems.

As if you know that I am in pain.

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Take today, when I was driving with my head waiting to explode and with tears to the office on Saturday morning just to clear off piles of mess, +121978010 >> you called, and the first thing you said to me was, "Assalamualaikum...baby...sayang okay tak...?

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As if you know that I am in pain.

Sweetness.
And after 30 minutes listening to your voice, I was humming all the way and these piles are almost gone. Yeayy to me!

And yes, it feels damn right to have you in my life. Owh, I did tell you that already, did I? ^____^
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So sayang, at least another 5/6 months to go. No sweat right? Teeeheeee...well, I'll TRY. Owhh c'mon, you know I can pull this off. Saya okay lah B, kan? Kita okay. Dulu boleh jee, sekarang mesti lagi boleh, kan sayang? >____<

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Pssttt...I know I say this often, but I do love you. I do love you for who you are, even when you put on 5kgs during your first month sailing. *Laaarrrrriiiiiii....hihihihi......*
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Take care sayang, when you are thinking of me and missing me (you better do! hehehe), just imagine that I am one of the engineers onboard, married to you. I'm sure you'll be smiling & grinning. Uish, jgn sengeh lama sangat bang..hik.

Kalau saya stop jadi DPP pastuh masuk ALAM pastuh join Bee onboard, Bee bagi tak?

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Ye saya tau, Bee tak bagi. Saje jeee tanye... >____<

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Good night sayang, I miss you but i'm smiling. xoxo. Happy first-month-onboard. =)